day 18

​my body battery has been hovering between 5 and 20 the last two days.  Yesterday the kite surf instructor canceled again at the last minute (3 days in a row he has had a last minute reschedule).  I signed up for an 830am lesson at a different school but their is no wind. I’m rescheduled for Friday, which may be awkward because the guy I’m staying with return’s Thursday.  I’m sitting with the fact it’s awkward but also the right thing for me. 

I went to CrossFit since the kite lesson was rescheduled, probably shouldn’t have. I’m spending the rest of the day resting as I’ve really been over doing it. 

Today’s meditation was on how our body is of nature and we place value in it but the reality is nature doesn’t care. I spoke to Steph today about her song writing camp and we said we would each try to write a sentence of imagery each day.  This is mine for today: Someday, like the overlooked apple decaying in the dirt, my body will rot—nature shows no mercy.